Sunday, November 30, 2025

November 30, 2025

Today is my sobriety date, meaning this is the day I stopped drinking and tried to live a life of sobriety. It's been 28 years and I have not regretted my choice. After all my morning stuff, we'll go to church because worship of God is part of what I do.

Nancy says she will take me to supper. There's a restaurant on Tacoma that I've never eaten in and I hear they have good fish and chips, so that's what we'll try.

The Living Sober Group is tonight, on zoom. Being of service to others is the foundation stone of my recovery so I'll be sure to be there tonight. 

Saturday, November 29, 2025

November 29, 2025

 Almost the end of November. It's not snowing yet, so that's a bonus.  The weather around here is often unpredictable. We have learned to take it as it is dealt to us. Accepting life on life's terms requires that we practice acceptance. There are many things in life which we cannot control. The weather is one. I remember one winter, about ten years ago, it did not start snowing until the end of January and then it did not stop snowing until May. I had to walk home from work that day. I did about three or four hours walking through the snow until finally a friend picked me up and drove me as close to my house as he could get me. That was to the entrance of the trailer park. The plow hadn't been through the park yet, so I had to wade through waist high snow for close to an hour before reaching my trailer. That type of weather we hopefully will avoid this year.

Friday, November 28, 2025

November 28, 2025

 It's November 28th. I make two separate blog posts each morning. Sometimes, the message in each overlaps. Oh well. The non profit organization we were involved with was actually incorporated on November 28, 2012, so that was 13 years ago. Time flies. Our original intent was to open a transition house for men in recovery from alcohol and drugs, but we later altered our mission statement and became a ommunity outreach for persons in recovery from alcohol, drugs and/or homelessness. We did some good things over the years. It was my chance to give a little back to the communities I took so much from when drinking.

I was at an AA meeting last night (oh crap I broke my anonymity again) and one of the topics for discussion was remembering what it was like. On Sunday, I will have 28 years of sobriety. That's a few twenty-four hours since I had my last drink, but I still remember what that was like and I still remember the unmanageability my powerlessness over alcohol brought me. Being homeless in the winter, sleeping under the bridge an hour at a time, because if you slept longer than that, you might freeze to death. I spent a lot of time walking from one tim hortons to another, sitting inside, taking an hour to drink my coffee.

Yesterday, I put up the xmas lights on my deck. The deck that's attached to my home, the one that's bought and paid for, the one on Mulgrave Lane actually. I got the home because I'm sober. But, just because I stopped drinking, a genie did not materialize and say here are the keys to your brand new home! But, being sober taught me how to get and keep a job, how to pay bills, how to take responsibility for my actions. It's not a mansion, it's just a little trailer made for the two of us.

But it beats sleeping in a snowbank with a rock for a pillow and a newspaper for a blanket.

Thursday, November 27, 2025

November 27, 2025

 Almost the end of November. A few days ago, I celebrated my 28 years at my home group and people were asking me if I was excited. I wasn't. But, I realized it's because my 28 years isn't until Sunday, technically. On Sunday, I might be excited. Or, it might be just another day.

I have a doctor's appointment today. Been having a problem with my shoulder. Might be just arthritis or a pulled muscle. Or something else. Always good to look into things.


Wednesday, November 26, 2025

November 26, 2025

 Have you ever been in a hurry to get things done, only to find that by rushing about, you didn't get half the things done that you wanted to do? Today it's like that for me. It's payday so I had to do the bills and the grocery store and I was going to look for a new pair of shoes, probably sneakers. I also had to meet someone at 10. I got the bills paid and I bought most of my groceries. I still need to get the odd thing. I couldn't find sneakers, only boots but of course I only went to one store. It's alright. This morning appointment is a no show and I don't have another appointment until one, so I have time to go to walmart. I am supposed to get a new chair for the computer area and walmart has a good selection of sneakers. So that sounds like a plan.

Tuesday, November 25, 2025

Excerpt from Faraway Eyes, a work in progress copyright Bernie Schultz

 06 - Two Men, A Trumpet And A Gypsy





Ivan was in the garage, working on one of the cars, when he saw Greta approaching with that boy from next door. He wiped his oil stained hands with an even oilier rag, and waved to her. When she was in the garage and standing before him she looked at him with deadly earnestness in her eyes. Ivan recognized that look as one he had seen in her mother's eyes the day the Russians came to Budapest.



Ivan. I need you to tell Eddie the story you told me about my parents.” Greta said.



Ivan looked back at Greta, trying to summon some earnestness of his own. “Now, my dear child. You know I'm not supposed to tell that story to anyone who is not part of the Family.”



But, you don't understand, Ivan. Eddie and I are in love.” Greta said, taking Eddie's hand in hers and squeezing it tightly.



Ahhhhh. I see. That does change things, doesn't it? Well, I will tell you the story again, so that your companion will know what sort of girl he is falling in love with.” Ivan chuckled. They were barely 13. Whatever it was they were up to, and he sensed that something was going on, it was a bit too soon to be love.



Ivan pulled a wooden crate over to sit upon, and launched into a tale that Eddie would probably not understand.

It was 1941. World War two had begun a few years ago. Many nations were involved or were becoming involved. Many people's lives were changed, their ideals questioned and re-evaluated. Many things that we had all taken for granted now became secondary and we all had to adapt to new situations.

Our story begins with a man named Felix Konig, a corporal in the Wehrmacht....what you would call the German army. Felix had come to the Cafe de Paris, a popular jazz cafe in London. He liked to play the trumpet and had played here a few times. But, Felix had recently learned that wanting to be a jazz musician and wanting to play jazz were not the same thing. So, Felix had decided that being a jazz trumpeter was not for him and he decided to sell his horn. A friend of his had a friend who knew a girl who knew a guy who was looking for a horn. And that's how Felix Konig met Roberto Canavar.

Ivan saw how Eddie's attention was roused by the mention of Roberto and he surmised that his being here in this garage, listening to the tale of Greta's parents, had something to do with the recent disappearance of Roberto Canavar.

Their meeting was to be brief, just long enough to complete the transaction, and then Felix planned to return to Budapest. They were sitting at a table outside the cafe. A jazz quintet had just finished its set and was packing its gear into the back of a dusty jeep. Their lead singer was a tall, slender, sensual redhead wearing a green sequined dress and a pink shawl. Felix was instantly and acutely aware of how stunning she looked and he wondered if, after the sale, he might be able to buy her a drink.

Roberto was examining the trumpet when the green-eyed lady in the even greener dress sauntered over to their table. She focused those sparkling green eyes on Roberto. She placed a long french-looking cigarette between her sensuous red lips and said, "Hey there, bugle boy. Can you light my fire?"

Roberto never even looked up from his examination of the horn. "I don't play with matches and therefore I do not light fires. And it's not a bugle. It's a Stradivarius trumpet. Now if you don't mind, could you go interrupt someone else."

Felix chuckled. This Roberto fellow was either married or gay. No matter. His refusal to acknowledge the lady gave Felix the opening he needed. He stood up and tipped his fedora at the lady. "I believe I can light that for you."

He reached into the pocket of his trousers and produced a box of wooden matches. He lit one and cupped it in his hand as the lady with the sparkling green eyes leaned forward to light her cigarette. As she did so, she glanced at him. Her eyes sparkled even greener and Felix knew he wanted more.

"Perhaps we could have a drink after I'm done here. It shouldn't be too long." Felix inquired.

"I certainly hope not. I'm feeling very thirsty," replied the lady with the sparkling green eyes.

Roberto had finished his study of the trumpet. He remarked that it was in excellent condition and he agreed to purchase it for the price they had agreed upon. After completing the transaction, Roberto departed the cafe.

Felix and the green-eyed lady had that drink. Then they decided to go outside the cafe, to smoke a cigarette and look at the night sky. It wasn't so foggy that night. As they talked, they walked.

The green-eyed lady introduced herself as Gretchen and spoke briefly of being born into a poor Romanian family, of discovering at the age of ten that she could sing, of leaving home at sixteen, joining up with a band of gypsies and finally being here, tonight, still with the gypsies.

Gretchen asked Felix to speak about his past and how he came to be here tonight, selling his trumpet to that rude but handsome man. Felix started to speak but then they heard the whine of the siren, and the distant roar of approaching bombers, sounds that reminded them of the reality of their world.

At first, they thought to go back to the cafe, but Felix had a room at a hotel on this street and, luckily, it was in the basement level, so they headed there instead. Felix felt a shiver as he remembered their decision not to seek refuge in the cafe. For the cafe was one of the bombers targets. Two bombs went down a ventilation shaft and exploded in the basement of the cafe, where the stage was. Everyone in that room died instantly. Outside, there were only wounded patrons, about a hundred of them.

Gretchen wept as she realized all her friends had all perished in the blast. Felix held her in his arms and tried to comfort her in her grief. They spent the night at his hotel. In the morning, Felix told Gretchen she could come with him to Budapest to stay at his villa for as long as she needed.

Gretchen agreed and so they departed on the morning train. It would be two day's travel to the port of Newhaven, so Felix had arranged a compartment rather than seats in the main car. They talked almost the entire trip, intense conversations about the universe and everything in it.

Ivan paused to light a cigar. “I'm sure you and Greta have similar conversations, the two of you being in love after all.”

Eddie sat up straight and looked squarely into Ivan's eyes. “As a matter of fact, we do have those kinds of talks.”

That is good, little man. But, allow me to continue the story before you decide to compare yourself with her....with Felix.”

The talking lasted through dinner. A sumptuous feast of lamb and sweet potatoes, fresh corn and breads. They drank at least two bottles of wine as they ate. They talked and laughed and flirted and somehow last night's tragedy seemed only a dream that faded wth the morning light.

When the attendant came to clear away their dishes, Felix ordered a bottle of champagne and ice. They opened the compartment's tiny window and enjoyed a cigarette. As they lay there on the foldout bed, staring into each other's eyes, both of them knew that champagne would not be required. And so, with the train clickety clacking through the Alps, and the warm night breeze caressing their bodies, they gave their souls to each other.

A week later, Felix and Gretchen arrived in Budapest. Hilda and myself were, at that time, employed by Felix as housekeeper and mechanic. I am from the province of Bavaria and Hilda is from Romania, so we all got along amicably. Gretchen was the type of woman that every man fell instantly in love with and I was no exception. But, of course, she was with Felix, my employer, to whom I felt a strong sense of loyalty and so I kept my thoughts and feelings to myself. Felix was the type of man that all men followed, a true leader. I was not under his command but if I had been I would have followed him to hell and back.

A few months after their return, Gretchen was with child and in the early weeks of 1942, she gave birth to a beautiful girl with eyes as dark as the night sky and as fierce as the sunlight. They named the child Greta.

Ah yes, Eddie, Felix and Gretchen are Greta's parents.

They were not married because Gretchen was Romanian and Felix was a German soldier and that sort of marriage would not have been allowed. Despite that, all went well for the next couple of years. Once Gretchen was recovered from childbirth, she began to work as a nurse in the Budapest military hospital. It had been built in the caves and tunnels underneath the Castle in the late 1800s and had not seen much use until the war we were currently fighting.

Gretchen worked long hours in the hospital. Hilda cared for Greta as if she was her own child. Hilda and I....are also not married, but we live together as a couple, so while Gretchen tended to the wounded in the hospital and Felix carried out his duties as a German officer, Hilda and I became like guardians to Greta. It was a very pleasant time for all of us. And then, the Russians came to Budapest.

In 1945, Soviet troops arrived with support from the Romanian militia and they laid siege to Budapest. The siege lasted a hundred days. Their intention was to kill all the Nazis in Budapest and emancipate all the Jews being held captive in the city. Felix was Wehrmacht which meant he served as a German soldier, but he was not necessarily a Nazi. In fact, he was often appalled by the atrocities inflicted upon the Jews and was instrumental in setting up an underground railroad for smuggling the Jews out of Budapest to nearby Greece. I cannot tell you anymore about that. Suffice to say that Felix was a good man.

There was much about the siege that no one of us cares to dwell upon. Many died during the siege and the rest perished trying to escape. Squads of Soviet soldiers led by Romanian secret service agents tried to infiltrate the city's defenses by entering through the hospital tunnels. The Germans, with the help of the Waffen SS managed to prevent such attacks. During one of the skirmishes, Felix came face to face with a Romanian captain. At first, he did not recognize him, and his squad would have shot him dead, but then he realized it was Roberto Canavar, the man who had bought his trumpet and had, without knowing it, introduced him to Gretchen. Felix spared his life and brought him to the hospital so that Gretchen could tend to his wounds. While in the hospital, Felix explained his dilemma to Roberto. He knew that he must escape before the Soviets stormed the city. He also knew that his household must be unharmed. So they devised a plan between them.

Hilda and Gretchen were both Romanian. Ivan was Bavarian which made him almost Romanian. So, the three of them could escape the city as rescued Jews, taking the child Greta with them. Felix would attempt an escape through the hospital tunnels and find his way to them in Greece. Roberto could just rejoin his comrades. It seemed like a good plan. Unfortunately, one of the other officers was captured and tortured by the Soviets. He revealed the plan some of the Germans had to escape through the tunnels. So, Gretchen fled to the tunnels to warn Felix. Before she did so, she begged Roberto to watch over Greta and her servants until their safe return. Because she and Felix had saved his life, he agreed.

Roberto has kept his promise these last nine years. He has become so close to Greta that she often calls him Uncle. We do not know the whereabouts of Felix or Gretchen. The last contact we had with them was about five years ago. At that time, they were employed as consultants for the British government. That's all I can say about that.

Two days ago, Roberto spotted a Waffen SS officer at the Market. To throw him off our trail, Roberto faked his death in a freak drowning accident. But, rest assured, Uncle Roberto is alive and well and taking steps to ensure that the Enemy does not find us.

But, isn't the war over?” Eddie exclaimed.

Ivan lit another cigar. “Some wars are never over.” He took a deep drag on his cigar. “And now, I must get the Studebaker up and running or Hilda will have a conniption for sure. Off with the two of you.”

As Eddie left with Greta, he realized there was still a lot of questions he hadn't asked and to which he might never get answers. But, it was an interesting story of that he was certain.

November 25, 2025

 Slept in this morning, but it's okay I'm retired; I do what I want. I do have an appointment with someone I sponsor but that isn't until 11 am so I had time to do all my morning stuff. I was a bit concerned if facebook would take me sending all those messages in the morning and considering it to be spam. I send about 70. But, they seem to be ignoring that which is okay.

Yesterday, for some reason they suspended my account but after going through a few hoops I managed to get it back up and working.

Tonight is the celebration of my sobriety at my home group. 28 years. The actual day isn't until the 30th but I think I can manage to stay sober those last 5 days. I saw someone pick up their 24 hour chip last night and I remembered mine. As of today, I have 10,222 days without a drink but the only difference between me and the newcomer is that I have more proof that this can be done.

Monday, November 24, 2025

November 24, 2025

 Good morning. I got a bit sidetracked. Monday is usually the day I record my podcast. It gets uploaded on Wednesday and I like to have it ready. I could say I record it early in case there's a power outage, but if there's an outage I wouldnt be able to upload it anyway.

My word today was Trust and I have been telling people to trust God, trust the process, it will be alright. All I really need to do today is listen to what I am telling others to do and then just do that. 

Birthday meeting downtown tonight, so I nade cookies.

Sunday, November 23, 2025

November 23, 2025

 In one week, I will have been sober for 28 years. In the beginning I had trouble staying sober for 28 days in a row. But, after the initial month was under my belt, then it was just a matter of  putting together a few months, one day at a time. And then, a few years, and here we are now, almost three decades.

Yesterday was another fun filled and eventful day. I ended up being the speaker for my al-anon group. That seemed to go well. Last night, we attended the AA talent show. It was pretty awesome. Music, comedy, poetry. No dance acts last night, but al in all it was enjoyable.

Getting ready for church right now. I made cookies for the coffee hour. Skor toffee with walnuts.

Saturday, November 22, 2025

November 22, 2025

 It's been a fun filled 24 hour period and this part of it is just getting started. I tried to let go let god a few times. I had asked someone to be a guest speaker at an event, but he canceled without informing me. figure that one out. I asked someone else but he is working and can't do it, so I asked another great speaker but he recently had throat surgery so speaking isnt something he can do right now. I asked one more fellow and he will get back to me this morning he said. If all else fails, I will do it myself.

Friday, November 21, 2025

November 21, 2025

 Serenity Corner is tonight. We've been doing that meeting for a while now. We started it in Woodside 25 years ago. When we moved to the trailer park here in woodlawn, we brought the group with us. It had a few different names over the years, but serenity corner seems to have stuck. 


Thursday, November 20, 2025

November 20, 2025

 Its Thursday and the sun is shining again. I got the xmas lights out of the shed yesterday but I didn't get them put on the deck because one set is not working properly. I'll get a new set later this week and try to get them up at least by the end of the month.

Today is the men's lunch at the church. They have it once a month in fall, winter, and spring. I go and I bring cookies.

Wednesday, November 19, 2025

November 19, 2025

 The sun is shining, that's a bonus this time of year. I'll take it. I plan to dig the christmas lights out of the shed this morning, make sure they are working and maybe even put them up on the deck. I don't like to put them up too early because after all christmas is still over a month away, but I prefer to put them up now before the storms start.

I'm meeting someone this morning to go over a concept and I might be meeting with someone this afternoon. We haven't really nailed down the day yet.

We might go to a meeting in the Passage tonight, that also has not been determined yet. The guy who usually drives us has been sitting in a tree waiting to kill Bambi and her family. I guess I don't see hunting as a way to find enjoyment.

Tuesday, November 18, 2025

November 18, 2025

 Not much happening today. I have a meeting with a friend this morning. Oh, and another friend said she would drop me off some sweets. She knows the way to my heart. Some say the quickest route is through my stomach. I think they may be right.

I have a session with someone else this afternoon.

My home group has a business meeting tonight.

As I say, not much going on.

Monday, November 17, 2025

November 17, 2025

 Meatloaf monday. That is what we used to call mondays when we ate at the soup kitchen. They always served meatloaf on mondays. Meatloaf, mashed potatoes, mixed vegetables. Fruit cocktail. When I worked at freedom foundation, monday was spaghetti or goulash or something to do with hamburger. I usually do the same. The big question with me will be spaghetti or meatloaf?

Sunday, November 16, 2025

November 16, 2025

 Getting ready for a busy Sunday. It takes me 90 minutes to get all my morning stuff out of the way. That means two daily readings, picking a word from my god box, doing a video post at the mens group in Hawaii and then sharing my word with about 70 people. I do that every morning.

We go to church this morning and then hang around for coffee hour. When I get home, I'll start supper. Roast beef in the slow cooker.

I have the district GSR meeting at two.

Come home and finish making supper. I have one sponsorship session at six and then the Living Sober group at eight.

Saturday, November 15, 2025

November 15, 2025

 28 years ago today, I boarded a train to begin my journey to Wyoming to meet a girl I had met on the internet. What I was really heading for was my next relapse. It was actually the relapse that precipitated me arriving at the bottom that led to my current 28 years of sobriety. Sobriety that I achieved  with the help of my higher power and the fellowship of AA.

November is always a month of reflection for me, but even more so this year because the days of the week this year are on the same dates that they were in 1997.

My word from my god box today was Selfishness. As I mentioned in another blog post, it is okay to be a little selfish sometimes. For example, a friend of mine is feeling under the weather so she opted to stay in bed this morning. That's not really selfish. It's more self-care.

Friday, November 14, 2025

November 14, 2025

 It's Friday. I noticed as I was doing a polo at my mens group that this year, the dates are on the same days of the week as they were in the year I sobered up. The weather is slightly different. It snowed five cm that day in 1997.

Looks like an easy day for me today. I only had one session this afternoon and he had to re-schedule. Its okay with me.

I volunteered to take the AA cell phone this weekend. I don't usually get that many calls. But, if I can help just one person then my responsibility will be met.

Serenity Corner is tonight. Serenity Corner, for those who don't know is a big book meeting we do on zoom and in my home. We been doing it on and off for twenty some years. Its become a part of who we are.

Thursday, November 13, 2025

November 13, 2025

 I slept in a bit today. I had things to do but my thursday morning session canceled last night, so that freed up my morning. I still meet with someone this afternoon.

I was hoping to take care of some banking for the district but it doesn't seem to be in the cards.

We will be going to the meeting at the church tonight. I might make cookies. Who knows.

Wednesday, November 12, 2025

November 12, 2025

 It's almost mid-November and we had a dusting of snow last night. Nothing to shovel, it was just flurries. I remember 28 years ago, in 1997, it snowed a couple of centimeters on Friday November 14th. I only recall that because the next day I was on a train bound for Wyoming. Well, that train was not going to Wyoming, that train was going to London, Ontario. In London, I took a train to Chicago, Illinois. In Chicago, I took a train to Denver, Colorado. In Denver, I transferred to a bus that went as far as Cheyenne, Wyoming and the person I was going to visit drove me from Cheyenne to Worland, Wyoming.

I didn't know it when the station in Halifax, but this would be the start of the relapse that would precipitate my bottom. The bottom that would lead to me being sober for the past 28 years. One day at a time. 

Tuesday, November 11, 2025

November 11, 2025

 Good morning. Happy Remembrance Day. Which is a conundrum of sorts. How can  a day when you remember people who have died be a happy event. I suppose you could find gratitude in why they have died, serving their country and the people in it.

I do not plan to attend any of the official ceremonies today. We had a remembrance service at church this past Sunday. That's enough for me. So, it will be a typical Tuesday here. I meet with a sponcee at 11. I'll bake some cookies later because my home group meets tonight. I might go dig something out of the shead, now that all the heavy rain has ended.

As I say, a typical tuesday.

Monday, November 10, 2025

November 10, 2025

 Today seems better. The weather is a bit crappy, but at least I'm getting things done on time. Not much on the docket today. I neet with someone I sponsor and I'm supposed to record my podcast sometime today. If there are no problems with it, then it only takes about an hour.

I have to go out to the shed and get something. Hopefully, the rain will let up long enough so I can do that. And if it doesn't, there's always tomorrow.

Sunday, November 9, 2025

November 9, 2015

 I was late getting started today and I had some problems sharing my word of the day with all the folk on my list. I had to play catch up when I got home from church and since I had some other mundane things to do like prepare vegetables for supper, it slipped my mind about updating my blogs. But, I remembered.

I managed to get all my paperwork prepared for the district meeting one week from today and I managed to get my podcast ready to be recorded tomorrow. So, the day wasn't a total loss. And in fact, even though not all my days are priceless, not one of them is ever worthless, anymore.

Saturday, November 8, 2025

November 8, 2025

 It's the second Saturday in November. Because it is the second saturday of the month, we go to a little church up the street and put on a knitting group for some seniors. we make blankets which we then give to people less fortunate than us. It's one of the ways I try to give something back to the community I took so much from when I was drinking.

We usually go to an al-anon meeting in the afternoon. Then, I meet up with a guy I sponsor. I think we'll be looking at Concept Four.

Then, it's looking like a zoom meeting in Hawaii.

We might watch a movie. I have enough of them.

Reminds me. I'm making corned beef and cabbage tomorrow so I need to take the brisket out of the freezer today so that I can soak it in water overnight.

Friday, November 7, 2025

November 7, 2025

 The sun is shining roday. This time of year, I'll take sunshine. Today is Friday so I meet with a man that I sponsor in the afternoon and then I host a big book study this evening on zoom. It's actually hybrid so I might even get to see a person or two at the in person part of the meeting. We're on the 12th step tonight. Ironic that the word I picked from my god box today is Help Others.

Not sure what's on the menu today. It might be fish. I have a box of breaded scallops. we could have those and maybe a tossed salad.

We are going to a knitting group tomorrow and I always bake cookies for that, but I have enough cookies left from the meeting last night, that I won't need to do that.

Thursday, November 6, 2025

November 6, 2025

 Weatherman had forecast some white stuff intermingled with the wet stuff we are getting today. Old Man Winter is just around the corner. Hopefully it won't be too bad this year. In Nova Scotia, one can never be too sure. One year, about ten years ago, it did not start snowing until the end of January. We almost thought we would escape winter unscathed. Then, it snowed at least once a week for four months, and not just little dustings. These were heavy, blinding, freezing ice storms and blizzards. It taught me to be grateful for each day.

We'll see what this day brings.

Wednesday, November 5, 2025

November 5, 2025

 Another eventful day in progress. Woke up. Did my morning readings and all the other things that go along with that. Uploaded the weekly podcast, did a bit of blogging. Met with two of the guys I sponsor. Had a chat with my brother. He might come to my birthday celebration at my home group the end of the month. Heading out to the passage tonight for a meeting. I won't even need to bring cookies because I have enough left over from last night.

Looking like chicken something something for supper.

Tuesday, November 4, 2025

November 4, 2025

 It's Tuesday morning, not to be confused with tuesday afternoon (Moody Blues), I have a few things to take care of today. I meet with a sponcee to go over a step. This afternoon I meet with another sponcee to go over a tradition. Early evening, I have a meeting with central service to go over some reports I have to give because of two committees that I serve on.

Hopefully, I'll get out of there in time to get to my home group.

Haven't figured out what's for supper yet. Maybe chicken.

Monday, November 3, 2025

November 3, 2025

 It's Monday again. The weeks just zip by. I don't have a lot to do, but enough to keep me from falling asleep.One of the men I sponsor is coming by this evening. We'll do a bit of work, then head down to the speaker meeting.


I have a god box to deliver to the lady I spoke for last Monday. I'm not her sponsor. I do sponsor some women but I do not sponsor her.


Tomorrow night I will be attending Central Service to update them on the progress of the midwinter roundup. But, that's tomorrow.


Later today we will have roast beef sandwiches with gravy and french fries.

Sunday, November 2, 2025

November 2, 2025

 Today is the day. November 2nd. Sunday, also. We'll be starting the day with church. Well, first things will be to make sure all the clocks in here that do not automatically reset themselves when the time changes, get reset so that they are all telling the same time. Church is at ten and its just up the street. I'll have just enough time after its over to come home and start a roast in the slow cooker, then we have a committee meeting downtown for next year's midwinter roundup. I'm a bit anxious about that meeting but I try to remember that I put the outcome of that meeting in Gods hands.

Saturday, November 1, 2025

November 1, 2025

 Welcome to the First of November.November is my gratitude month. It is the month I put the plug in the jug. Sobered up, I mean. I went to my first AA meeting in May of 1994, but I didn't stop drinking then. I wanted to but I wasn't ready yet. I wasn't at my bottom yet. But, I eventually got to my bottom. A bottom is different for everybody. For some people it's death. But we do not all have to take the garbage truck all the way to the dump. Some of us get off somewhere along the way. 


For me, it was December 4, 1997, when I was in a little church in Meductic, New Brunswick. In that church, I surrendered, truly surrendered to a power greater than Bernie and asked for help with this obsession of mine. I was separated from alcohol on the 30th of November and a few days later I asked the god of my understanding for some help with this.  I have not had to take a drink since then. And I have not wanted to take a drink since then. That, alone, is a miracle for me. The voice that always talked to me is silent.


For these things, I am grateful.