December 8, 2025

 Monday Monday. And whats that other one. Rainy Days and Mondays always get me down. I'm retired so it's always the weekend and there  never really are any mondays. Well, there are Mondays for everyone else so if its a bank or something that's not open on Sunday, then it applies. Mondays at the soup kitchen were always meatloaf monday. Mondays when I worked at the transition house, it was always spaghetti or goulash. Now that I don't have any bosses to placate, monday is whatever type of food I want. And goulash does sound appealing.

December 7, 2025

 Sunday morning, getting ready for church. Yesterday was a Santa Claus day for me. We dressed up in red suits and delivered warm clothing to a couple of womens shelters. Then, I went to a children's christmas party and pretended I was the real Santa. It was fun. 

I shaved the beard last night. I only grow it for the little projects I do and then after they are done.....zip! I prefer to be clean shaven.

We have a committee meeting this afternoon. This one should go quickly. We'll see. My word today is acceptance. I don't know who will need to practice it more, me or the rest of the committee....

December 6, 2025

 Yesterday, I was having a conversation with someone about coincidences and how there are none. I shared a favorite quote of mine that "coincidence is how God protects his anonymity." Later today, I will put on my Santa suit and drive out to a local womens shelter to give them gifts of warm clothing and then to another community outreach to do the same thing. Then, this afternoon, I get to play Santa at a kids xmas party. So, I'll be spending my day performing services to my community. The word I picked from my god box today was Service. That's either a coincidence or it's God showing up at just the right time with just the right information to remind me that He is still there.

December 5, 2025

It's Friday. That means a lot to people who work 9 to 5 or 3 to 11 or whatever shift they work. I'm retired so I have a different view of each day. Friday is the day that Serenity Corner meets. Serenity Corner is a 12 step group that meets at my place and on zoom every Friday night.  We have been doing that or years, decades, actually, and it's something I look forward to. So, like other people, the normies so to speak, I look forward to Fridays, but not because it is the completion of the work week, but because it may well be the beginning of a new life for someone coming to their first meeting, and for those of us who have been doing this for a while, it is an opportunity to share some time with each other. 

December 4, 2025

 December 4, 1997 was the day I surrendered my drinking problem to God as I understood him. I was in a church just outside of Meductic, New Brunswick. I don't remember what faith the church was, but I remember saying a little prayer where I asked God for help. I'd like to say there was a blinding flash of light, that time stood still or the earth stopped moving, but there was none of that. I did feel a hand on my shoulder. I turned around quickly because I had thought I was alone in the church, and I was. I later realized that was probably the hand of God on my shoulder, reassuring me that it was going to be okay. And, it has been okay. For 28 years.

Sometimes, because life happens, I forget that I surrendered and I try to do things Bernie's way again, but my way does not work and almost always places me in situations where I shouldn't be, making decisions that I shouldn't be making. It is then that I remind myself that I am no longer driving the bus and I renew my resolution that I will do things His way, not mine.